Time is a powerful allied. You have come. I'm ready for you.

The funny part about the funny part is never a part nor funny. It's just a cruel realization that shakes the whole world. My world got shaken. A year ago, I voluntary walked away from only person who I really care. I walked because I thought I was doing right. I listened idiots. Damn! I was an idiot for not realizing what i was doing. I hate them. I hate them because they point me the other way. but I hate myself. Myself for listening them. I miss her. I miss her so much. It hurts. It hurts so bad. I'm a idiot. I caused her pain. I pushed her away. I hurt her. I cause this. I CAUSED THIS  WITH MY THOUGHT , ACTIONS, AND WORDS.   CARITO, FORGIVE ME! I WAS A COWARD. I 'M A COWARD!

In economics, touching bottom is when you stop falling and start to go up. For me, is to realize what stupid I am, and start doing action to change direction. It's a long way, GOD BLESS ME, because I don't have the strength to even start to change. I'm scare to death. I'm hungry, I'm hopeless, and ALONE. I stand by myself. No one before me. No one after me! I'm scared to be happy.I'm scare of being sad. I'm scared to be alone. I'm scared of being accompanied. ...  Enough of this ENOUGH OF THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS